I started a basic philosophy course this week. The homework is when one finds oneself in a difficult situation to ask ‘what would a wise person do’. So at this moment in time I have been single for over a month (and someone is ill on a train at mile end – surprise surprise). I have been reminiscing in my mind these last ten days about someone I dated a few years back, yes I know – sad but true – boo fucking hoo.

He was a gentleman, from the same country, understood my references and generally got the motor running (ahem). Things dissolved on his suggestion, his reasons were accepted, whether or not they were believed is relative… Now that I’m enjoying my selfish all-about-me status, his memory has arrived with a beautiful vengeance. I’m not complaining but I suppose the control freak hitching a ride in my mind would like to give credit where it’s due. Do I seek him out? (Even though he deleted our Facebook connection after time it still states he’s in town) Or do I maturely continue without him as I have done for the last four years, plus minus…

The closure I seem to crave never really occurred for me if I’m honest since the ending of things was not my idea. Impartial friends suggest logic for both paths, I may just take action for the hell of it…
I have Midnight Radio from Hedwig’s Angry Inch playing  on my iPod right now, only coupled with a busker’s sloppy Parisienne Walkways in Leicester Square to counter it, I am driven by deeper forces…

I think I know excatly what a wise person would do, question is do I want to?